My favourite translator said that when she was an ambassador for Hungary she took all these Japanese politicians on a tour and she was trying to circumtranslate ‘merry go round’ cause she didn’t know the Japanese word for it by calling it a ‘horse tornado for children’ and they had no blessed idea what she was saying and she finally started running in circles going up and down and they go ‘ohhhhh, in Japan we call those ‘merry-go-rounds’”
One of the most horrible things you can do to a person is treat them a certain way until they fall so deeply in love with you, make them feel like they are loved and wanted and then once you realise they are completely yours, take it away. It’s no longer worth the effort. You have what you wanted.
Then proceed to tell this person, “this is the way I am”, every time they break down. Maybe even sneak in some bullshit like, “I’ll try to fix this”. It may not be who you ARE, but it’s who you tricked me into believing you WERE.
My heart broke every day for 4 years, and yet when this eventually lead to the inevitable, it was my fault for falling out of love without my knowing, and finding that due to this I could move on very quickly.
One of the many ways you crushed my heart was when you told me you would be fine if we were to stop being together, that you would be “sad for a while, but then [you’d] be alright”. Because that’s an acceptable thing to tell the person you love. So you know what? It’s been a year. Fucking do it.
I am just so fucking cruel, aren’t I?